AZ

I will be seeing these sights very soon…

 

sad

Found on a bulletin board in an upscale Starbucks in West Hollywood.

 

my year in pictures…2008

 

Copenhagen cemetery photo shoot

 

Hollywood cemetery photo shoot

 

see more pwn and owned pictures

see more pwn and owned pictures

 

important.

Lots of important stuff coming up.
Clinicals start in a week, so I am looking forward to that. I don’t have a preference for what hospital I go to, so that’s easy. Just do NOT put me with “Bossy”. Speaking of, in lab yesterday she asked me to guide her through setting up a sterile field. I guess the second time around isn’t the charm for her. As she’s picking up a hemostat with her “sterile” hand from the sterile field, she puts the hemostat down on top of the patient’s leg and proceeds to put the hemostat back into the sterile field to get sterile gauze. I told her that since she had contaminated her instrument, she cannot put that back into the sterile area. “Noooo! Nooo! yes I can!!” she insisted. I stared at her and just had to leave and go work with Carly at the other end of the room. To think that this woman could be a nurse scares the shit out of me. She’s the most incompetent person I’ve met thus far in all my classes for nursing. I seriously hope she fails, only because someone like her will get lazier and end up hurting someone badly.
Took nursing exam #3 today. 50 questions in 30 minutes. Much bitching ensued per usual from certain students. “that wasn’t in the book!”"What the hell was THAT on the test for?” “Why do we have to memorize THAT kind of stuff?” “it’s all the teachers fault. I don’t learn shit from her.” I just drank my coffee and stared at the ceiling, wishing that everyone would just spare me and shut the hell up. Gee! Only 2 more years with these complainy complainsters.
I have the day off from school tomorrow, though I do have a doctor’s appointment to see about getting my medication adjusted and check the ferritin levels for anemia. I am feeling better in that department, thank goodness.
I’ll be going to So Cal on Dec 18th-24th, to see friends and see my brother. I have to spend a couple days in Los Angeles to take pictures in some cemeteries there. I got to the Hollywood Forever cemetery but didn’t get to the other old ones in that area.

 

weight.

When we were practicing in lab yesterday, the subject of weight got brought up for some odd reason. There were 2 youngish guys practicing blood pressures next to us and inquired as to how much we weigh. Not being weird about revealing our weight, we both told them. For the record, I weigh 145 lbs and Carly weighs 150.
Both guys made comments about how, wow, that is  a lot…really? 145? They looked us up and down. It felt almost…I don’t know, like they were trying to tell us that we weighed too much or something. It bothers me, only because I doubt they would be saying this if we were male. Granted, I have gained 15 pounds in the last couple years. Not critical, and doesn’t affect my health or self esteem. I like myself, and 15 pounds isn’t a big deal if I got really ambitious to lose it suddenly.There is that pressure to be thin when you are a woman, and it is so wrong and irritating.
I guess it bothered me more yesterday because Carly was just telling me about her best friend who has since become bulimic since summer. Her friend has been constantly harassed by her parents about “being fat”. Carly showed me a picture of her friend. She weighs as much as Carly and myself. Carly took her to eat out on Wednesday, and her friend threw up all of her $20 dinner in the restroom. Her esophagus has started to bleed, and she no longer gets her period.
So, when people make seemingly innocent comments about people’s weight, it can have grave consequences sometimes, depending on the person’s state of mind. For me, I just find comments like that irritating and move on.

 

whine.

I’m still sick. Is it time to go to the doctor?
Much drama with the boy yesterday. He is 14. What can I say. I can understand.

 

grrrr. girl stuff.

I just wrote a huge post and it got deleted. This is why I should really start writing in real, paper journals like I used to!
I was writing about my anemia.Same shit, different day: I’m still tired all the time.I am taking 130 mg of iron 2 times a day. (A normal dose for people is 18 mg a day in a multivitamin) I’ll be having my blood tested in 4 weeks to see if it’s improved. Anemia is worrisome, because it’s only a symptom of something else that is wrong…and doctors this far have been lazy (yes, lazy) in finding out why my body cannot keep its iron stores. Basically, I am oxygen starved all the time due to the lack of those stores. I don’t look sick, but I sure feel like death sometimes. My doctors think it’s because of heavy period bleeding, but again no one is sure. I do have an appointment to see someone about endometrial ablation. Nope, no more kids for me. Heavy bleeder? check. Periods affecting my life in a negative way? Check. I’m a great candidate. The procedure does scare me somewhat; there are risks, as with any procedure. A hysterectomy is wayyyyyyy more dangerous, in my opinion.